tHe eNd..

each of us represents a star in the sky. sometimes we shine with the rest. sometimes we twinkle alone. sometimes we fall to make somebody's dream come true... 

some things are not meant to last.. just like the butterflies. in as much as they wanted to live longer than they do, their destiny is inevitable.

we all make choices. we make decisions. it feels like a stab in an existing wound to give up something, especially if its a person.. but it would be more painful to continue wooing someone who treats us as 'substandards'. what's more painful is that we don't have the right to be angry coz they don't need us. probably, they have no intention of ignoring us. its just that we don't matter at all.. :(

everything fades. nothing lasts forever. even in the dictionary, the 'end' exists. no questions asked.

i'll try not to miss you. as any disease is better avoided than cured, so does our friendship. i don't wanna enumerate the reasons why but this is for good. i believe this is what you wanted long way back. i felt that but i gave myself the benefit of the doubt. i knew where i stood but i still tried to be a part of your life despite the indirect resistance.

like a star, i am ready to fall just to make your wishes come true. i know you've waited for this.

i'd be hurt..
i dunno how long would it take to heal..
but since nothing lasts forever, this too shall pass..
i'll be okay..
soon!

i hope you'll feel better now..

mE vs mYsELF...

the RIVER:
   
endless..
flowing..
full of life..
full of energy..
     

ME:

weak..
fearful..
helpless..

BUT..

willing to learn and unlearn..


after all, life itself is a risk..
no pain, no gain..
no guts and sacrifice, no glory..

i won..
i conquered.. 
and i felt good! 
 

bLiSs....

i didn't want this to end..

i've never felt so free like this..
for me, this is heaven on earth..

the clouds came down to hug me..
the cold breeze kissing my cheeks..
the countless raindrops are like blessings from the heavens..

this is love..
this is love making with mother nature..


no lies.. no limits.. no resentments.. pure happiness.. acceptance.. freedom!

i feel so safe in your arms..
your caress thrills my whole being..


your scent lingers in my memory..
your voice sounds like music to my ears..


your hug feels like heaven to my soul..
if only i could tell you how much you mean to me..


i long to feel your touch once more..
but only in my world of make-believe 
coz i know you'll never be mine..


nevertheless, just let me love you..
in silence..